The events, for now, are done.
To be fair, we did turn it around in only 3 weeks since the previous event, so it’s not surprised my stress levels were high.
I won’t lie, my anxiety hit the roof the day before the event. To the point I felt so ill that I had to stop everything, I was doing and just see the attack through. This is something I haven’t done in a long time.
I knew planning these events would affect my stress levels. I didn’t feel like this at all when I got married, though so I didn’t expect to feel this overwhelming pressure to pull another event off again.
I decided after the attack had subsided a little that I needed to regroup again. I needed to plan, so that’s what I did.
I wrote a list of everything I needed to do, which helped me regain control again. It was a list of everything I was worrying about.
I decided to find all my Orla Kiely “Bags for life” and organise everything into categories. For some reason I always forget to take to the supermarket, plus the majority of our food shopping is done online and delivered too, but they look pretty and come in very handy for running charity fundraisers.
So once the bags were labelled I just put the relevant bits in them, and once this was done I felt I had regained control of the situation, and the feeling of stress and the sickness that came with it went. I was then able to work out what to do next.
The next day was event day and although I had butterflies in my tummy, I was prepared. However when your other half reminds you he put his car in for a service first thing, you realise that your plans aren’t quite going according to plan. Hence I relied heavily on my Mum who, like me, gets a job done.
I arrived at the hall and just rushed round like a mad woman. My planning had worked the day before, so I knew where everything was, and it was easy to put everything out. However once I was all set up and my lovely “glam squad” and photographer arrived, I really hoped that it wouldn’t just be us and we would get more people in through the door to the event.
I needn’t have worried as people arrived, they donated and they ate cake. The Mind’s Eye Challenge Event was going to work and my crazy idea was happening once again.
It was a success and to top it off we raised over £1000 for “Mind”.
I don’t pretend to know the first thing on how to deal with all anxiety and the stress of life, but I know what works for me. However much as I hate it when it’s there, it’s the getting out of that anxious state that helps me in the long run. In going through it, I learn what works for me too.
So my only helpful suggestion is if it happens to you, if you’re feeling overwhelmed and have an event coming up that brings it on, then just stop for a moment.
See where the attack takes you. Let it ride out and then re-group. I did that this time and once I had let it happen, then I was me again. Sometimes it’s easier to have the attack and let it go then prevent it and let it build. Once mine had gone, I had the control back and was able to plan, organise and get myself ready for my event.
Thank you for reading. X